I’m in a very thinky mood right now. So I’m going to just type and whatever happens, happens. (s/o to Eliza)
So, I’m sitting here in a heated house blasting music and watching Netflix and my internet hiccups and I legitimately get angry at it. Netflix lags and me, as a human being, gets mad at it. Do you realize how selfish that is? I’m disgusted with myself. There are people out there that will be freezing their asses off tonight, sleeping without a home. People out there will not be eating dinner tonight because they can’t afford it. There’s children out there who will never know what it’s like to take a shower daily or sleep in a warm bed every night and I have the nerve to complain and get mad at my HIGH SPEED INTERNET for lagging for a minute. I can’t watch a TV Show on Netflix ($7.99 a month) for 2 minutes because my internet is acting up and I get mad and upset at that.
I am legitimately upset with myself. I feel sick to my stomach actually. I’m a spoiled fuck. I have to learn to appreciate what I have. I need to learn. Somehow, I need to learn to appreciate all this shit I have because I’m a lucky, spoiled fuck.
I don’t know man, I’m just in a very weird mood and I’m legitimately upset at myself for getting mad at that. I need to change. I will change, eventually.
Enjoy your day guys.